March 25th, 2023
[17:01] wassup!! i am obsessed with saw now heheh... i watched the first movie and uh whoops now i love leigh whannell heheh.. i wanna add fanpages to this site that would be kool. ill do one for saw, mcr, leigh whannell maybe idk...
[17:47] also i deleted most of my social media... i kept twitter and instagram so i can chat with my friends and stay in the know or whatever, but honestly i kinda hate being so connected. i wanna downgrade my phone to like an old flipphone or something. i kinda hate the internet. i hate how its designed to keep u traped in and like endlessly scroll. i hate how media consumption has changed too, in terms of streaming services and whatnot. i wanna go back to the good ol days of bluray dvds and public television, even if i wasnt alive for any of that. i wanna collect vhs, and music cassettes too, so i can at least pretend that im not living in this god awful internet age.
[18:00] i dont really have much to say tbh, but i think since im gonna b spending less time on social media, ill finally b able to finish this site lmao
March 4th, 2023
[23:50] yo! im laying awake in a hotel room rn in halifax, my mom snores so loud omg xD
today was an interesting day. of course, most of the day was spent driving (to halifax). when we got here we went to pick up my sister from uni, and we went to the mall. me and my brother split off and jus kinda wandered around. ive never been to a mall with multiple floors, it was kinda crazy. anyway, we were going down some stairs, and i see this 14 year old boy peek his head around the corner, scream and run off to his friends. they start yelling abt me being emo and whatevs. i felt embarrassed for them. here they were making this huge scene, and i never even looked their way.
the next time we passed them, they threw a tim hortons gift card at us (and i still ignored them). i guess someone called security on them and i watched as they were escorted out of the mall. what a bunch of losers.
what else happened... uhm...not much tbh. while my mom and my sister were off shopping, i bought a monster and i had to like chug it in case they saw us. my mom hates energy drinks lol. she lets me dye my hair (now that i convinced her) she lets me keep my phone in bed (now that i convinced her) but she loses her mind when she sees an empty can of monster in my room... doesnt make much sense if u ask me. its not like i drink them often.
i dont really have much else to say... tmrw i plan on goin 2 value village, i hope i find smthn kool :P
March 1st, 2023
[23:36] i havent updated this in awhile, i can explain. we had two weeks off school instead of one because the canada games were in my province (woop). i tend to only go on this during school, cuz im bored lol. at home i got my xbox so i dont gotta go on this, ya dig?
anywayz, i died my hair purple :3 but just in the back, everywhere else is black. it looks pretty good imo.
and its time for my monthly life updates (woop woop!) remember that guy who wanted to hang out. i havent spoken to him since lol. kinda by choice tbh. idk what it is but he gives me the ick so... i dont think i could b frendz with ppl online b4 meeting them irl first. which means im kinda screwed in the frend domain, but whatevsssss dudeeeee. everythings gonna be fineeeee.
uh what else, oh i still havent touched my leftover spanish stuff. yikes. im trying but i just cant. i dont wannaaaaa. its so lame but i dont even have much to do tbh. maybe i should just do it now...
[00:52] ok i did most of it... feels pretty good tbh. i feel pretty relieved, who wouldve guessed.
tomorrow my dad is taking me and my brother to the movies. idk what were watching but i love leaving the house so whatevs.
anywayz, thats it for today. im gonna try to write again tomorrow :D
February 15th, 2023
[1:18] yea thats right. its 1 in the morning. what r u gonna do abt it.
im tired bored and unhappy, maybe cuz im tired idk. but uh anyways im here to write whats on my mind so i can sleep.
a couple of weeks/months (fuck dude i dont remember) ago, i followed some dude on instagram. turns out we live in the same province. we talked a little, he said we should hang out sometime, i was stoked. but after that we didnt message much. but whatevs idc abt that. like three weeks ago or smthn he messaged me again, and we spoke a lot more. he said again we should hang out, and added that he was free any day. i shouldve said i was too since hes the one who has to drive to me. but instead i just kinda ignored it and kept talking.
now im a little worried he thinks i dont wanna hang out, but i do. now i dont know how to bring it back up and i havent messaged him in like a week... uhm...
but like its not my fault. i never really had friends before, idk how this stuff works. im inexperienced.
[1:26] in other news, i still cant pay attention in school. remember when i said that i felt like everything was gonna be great? i was thinking like this semester i was gonna get my shit together. however, my shit is still very much not together. i get to school, zone out, then go home. i wish i could just focus but uh i guess it is what it is.
[1:33] uhm what else... oh i cut my hair just now. not too short but short enough. like just above my shoulders. im pretty good at cutting my hair, idk how. its not choppy or anything. i could be a professional hairdresser, right here, right now lol.
anyway, i wrote this on my phone, never did that before. idk why i never thought of this, its so much better. i dont have the motivation to open my computer most days, and im always on my phone lol. hopefully i can sleep now.
February 4th, 2023
im feeling good today. i dont know why. i feel like everythings gonna be great.
[22:53]but anyways, im watching a peethan stream rn. fucking ben shapiro am i right?
i think im gonna spend more time on this website. new semester new me u know? i need to do all those links that go nowhere, oo i should make another list.
February 3rd, 2023
yo!!
[11:21] im sittin in french class rn, its the first day of 2nd semester and im boreddddd
yesterday i had a cavity filled, absolute nightmare. istg im never getting a cavity again. she didnt wait long enough for the numbing to, well you know, numb, but she said if i felt uncomfortable to just let her know. i didnt want to bother her (idk man) so i didnt say anything, but it hurt SO BAD!! she was drillin away at my tooth and i was trying so hard to keep it together. finally it hurt way too bad and my hold body twitched lol. she was like "oh ok we can wait a little more then".
after, i walked to the gas station to get a monster while i waited for my grandmother to come pick me up. i havent had a monster in so longggg. i still have some left over with me rn. im trying to savor it as much as i can because idk when ill be able to get one again.
my mom ordered the new fob cassette for me. or rather she pre-ordered it, whatevs. im stoked, the two songs they released already are epic. i should add a page for my cassette collection, even though i only have one. rn i have past lives by l. s. dunes, but i want to go thrift shopping and get more. and, a lot of local hardcore bands sell there albums as cassettes (yay).
January 14th, 2023
hello!!
[19:29]im adding a time thing in my blogs so i can come back and add stuff and i dont need to write it all at once. yes its in military time or whatever. that how its written in french and that how i understand it best. what r u gonna do about it??
anyway, im in the middle of editing my thumbnail for my first youtube video, i cant wait to start uploading more. i dont really care about getting a lot of views or stuff like that. i mean, it wouldnt hurt, but im not gonna get upset if only like 3 people watch. its more like a thing i can look back on when im older, ya know?
[19:55] and voila! my video has been published! ill embed it somewhere on this site, not rn tho. laterrrrrrr
soz for the short entry.. but also... im not sorry at all lol. oh and, im gonna stop signing my entries, it looks dumb :P
January 8th, 2023
hi (and happy new year)!!
i dont have much to say rn... just coming on here to say that i wont be doing much on here for about a month. im starting to fall WAY behind on schoolwork. even if i dont really give a fuck about school, i hate not turning things in.
also, i was thinking about uploading youtube videos. im not sure what i would upload, but i was thinking a mix between like early 2010s emo youtube and lazy commentary. if youd be into that, or have vid suggestions, lemme know!
im counting down the days till may, and i wish it was possible to fast-forward a few months.
-adrenalineangel xP
December 21th, 2022
happy holidays!!
i know i said i would write again "tomorrow", and its far past that. but hey, im writing now, stop quit complaining.
i hope everything is well with you, unnamed reader. and if there not, trust that they will eventually, ill rub my lucky shoes for you if you want (just ask me in my guestbook).. i hope you have a wonderful holiday break, spending time with loved ones and whatnot.
what's new with me? heh, i thought you'd never ask...
firstly, i bleached the back of my hair, '05 Gerard Way style. ill upload photos here once i find the cables for my digital camera. did i get my parents' permission? no, absolutely not. my parents arent huge fans of dyed hair, piecing, tattoos, etc., so this really pissed them off. BUT, they didnt ground me, so woo!!
monday, i drove to halifax with my mom to pick up my sister from university. it was like a 5 hours drive one way, and i kinda regretted it tbh. but, in the end, it was fun. ive always loved roadtrips. while we were in halifax, we went to ikea. ive never been to an ikea before, and lemme tell you, it was a NIGHTMARE.
the store is laid out in a strange way. its almost like they want you to get lost. and seeing every product sharing the almost exact label is kind of dystopian. it reminded me of The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys: National Anthem. what really made me want to leave was the strange music that was playing. i dont know if this is custom for all ikeas, but this ikea was playing this particularly eerie loop of what sounded to me like royalty-free music. it was a kind of cheerful melody, the kind you would hear in the background of a kids toy unboxing video on youtube.
in other words, my ikea experience only further fueled my hatred for capitalism.
hmmm... what else happened. OH, i learned that on PEI, if youre 16 and older, you dont need parental permission to get a body piercing !! so, you know what that means... and, considering my parents unexpected temporary anger towards my hair, im totally gonna get a couple. i want either just a side labret or snakebites, and an eyebrow piercing. thing is, im gonna need a drivers licence. if all goes well, ill be getting my graduated drivers licence in may (hold on till may by ptv starts playing). im a little worried i wont get it by then though. i havent been getting as many driving lessons as i would like. i need like 10 hours, and right now i only have 4 and a half. ive been getting 1 and a half per month, so lemme think. theres 5 months till may, 5x1.5 is 7.5. 7.5+4.5 is 12... oh... nevermind im good.
lastly, my list. i uh... i havent done anything except catch up on homework... oh well
happy holidays to you all, and ill see ya next time,
-adrenalineangel xP
December 14th, 2022
hi!!
so.. its been awhile... again. it doesnt matter tho since i only just made thise website and no one is gonna read any of this old stuff anyway. so, what have i been up to, you ask?
to start, ive started watching community again. i used to watch it with my sister 1-2 years ago, but we didnt get very far since we never had time to watch together. about a week ago, i introduced it to my brother, and he wont stop watching. so really, im not watching, i just happen to be in the room sometimes when its on.
honestly, i wish i kept watching after my sister stopped. its like my kind of humour, sometimes its like kind of offensive but its really never downright awful. and its not as serious as other sitcoms. some have many serious moments, like the episode of B99 where rosa is involved in a shoot out or something and everyone is worried. when i watch sitcoms, i wanna laugh, if i wanted to watch a drama i wouldve put on a drama, ya know?.
community is a far more silly show. from extreme-cowboy-roleplay-paintball to a former professor living in the vents with a monkey named Annie's Boobs, theres no room for real life problems. its a perfectly chaotic show and i love it. i think im gonna add a page to my website for reviews: tv shows, book, movies, albums, everything. ill add it tomorrow maybe.
in other news, i completely forgot about that list i made a couple entries back. so uh heres how thats going: i applied to work at the gas station like a week ago and they never emailed me or called me, so ill probably work at the grocery store instead; i am completely caught up in most of my schoolwork except spanish class, falling behind just a tad but thats fine; i havent worked on my about me at all, or any of the links, they all still go to nowhere but i really dont have time to update this as much as i used to; i havent cleaned or redoodled on my shoes, i got a pair of doc martens that ill be wearing all winter, so its not as urgent as it was; blog has been fixed, some of the links have nothing but ill get to that..
i guess its time for a new list then:
November 28th, 2022
helloooo !!
remember how my phone broke? well, my new phone came today. lemme tell u, im gonna miss my old phone. tell me why the camera quality is worse, on a BRAND NEW PHONE. to be fair, its a samsung, but still... you would think they would get the hang of it by now !!
on the bright side, ill now be able to listen to music on the bus. i used to listen to the radio, theres usually a couple good bands playing, like our lady peace or the tragically hip, but now all they play is christmas pop music. i think thats really weird cuz its the radio station slogan is "70s, 80s and more". why dont they keep the theme and play older christmas pop songs. i could maybe dig that. anyways, i only had time to download 2 albums: Past Lives and The Black Parade. thats fine tho, those could last me till the end of time...
i dont really have much else to say.. the sites been getting a lot of updates. you mightve noticed i added a dream journal. do i seriously think that dreams reveal some sort of hidden truth about ourselves? not necessarily, but i think our subconcious could reveal what were really thinking in the form of dreams. you know the feeling, when youre feeling something but you dont know what it is. turn to your dreams, baby! theyll tell ya!
on that note, im gonna call it a night, see what my dreams tell me tonite...
-adrenalineangel xP
November 22th, 2022
man, i am NOT good at entries LOL...heres a life update since its been ALMOST A MONTH ?!
im in spanish class rn, since my phone broke its the only time i can go online... it was so weird when it broke cuz nothing even happened !! i turned it off, turned it back on and BOOM, the screen is flashing white and i cant see anything. i was so scared i lost all the vids i took at the mychem concert but NO WORRIES :D its all there on google photos... thank god...
hm, what else... uh im listening to more music. b4 it was ONLY my chem, but now ive gotten into the habit of listening to more stuff, like a full album from someone then i decide if i like them. lately ive been listening to anthony green, lsduens finch, the get up kids, linkin park, korn, limp bizkit, slipknot, green day, circa survive... i think thats all, but a significant improvement!!
speaking of improvement, check out my site !! ok so its not that much better but its a little better, as in, im actually working on it LOL !! i think ill finish the links page and then do my about me. the about me was gonna be sorta like a little id card, but i think now im just gonna put a bunch of stuff, like photos n shit.
i think im gonna start adding a "things to do" section in every blog, site-related and not. so... things to do:
October 26th, 2022
I haven't worked on this site in ages... sorry lol. I've been a little busy with school (and anxiety), but I'm good now
Lately, I've been getting into folk punk. I know a lot of people hate folk punk but I don't know why. It's so good!! I've been enjoying stuff from Wingnut Dishwashers Union, Johnny Hobo and the Freight trains, Ramshackle Glory... anything with Pat the Bunny tbh, but also the Taxpayers, Songs for Moms and the 241ers. Folk punk definitely gives me more motivation to practice guitar, since it's more simple and doesn't tire my wrists as much as MyChem does LOL
Speaking of, I've been playing a lot more guitar lately. I learned the rhythm parts of The Ghost of You, Honey this Mirror and Give 'Em Hell, Kid. And I learned American Idiot. Another thing I want to learn is how to scream... but I'll probably never do that ROFL!!
On another note, I've been writin more poetry and I keep forgetting to put it here Dx... I'll do it tomorrow, since it's late and I kind of just want to sleep. I will also keep working on my homepage, since it's ugly as hell right now LMAO!! I'm gonna add an email button, some stamps, some gifs, and other graphics to spice it up.
Welp!! I'm gonna sleep now... See ya!!
-adrenalineangel xP
October 1st, 2022
It's officially spooky season :D !! Even though I would consider it to be in September, but I guess technically it's just in October. I'm probably going to update the homepage to be Halloween themed (yea i know the homepage isnt even done).
I still don't know what I'm gonna do for my costume D: !! Maybe I'm a little old to go trick-or-treating (I'm 16), but it's not like I have a party to go to xD. And it's fun to walk around with your friends in the dark !! I'm thinking I might just cut some holes in a sheet and be a ghost, a classic costume.
My brother and his friends might be over the weekend before to do a scary movie marathon. They said I could hang out with them as long as I buy them snacks, which is great !! My friends are kinda lame and we don't hang out often, and my brother's friends are cool.
I mean, I don't really want to buy them snacks, but I kind of owe one of them since he steals cigarettes from his brother for me xD.
That's all I have to say for now !! I'm gonna keep working on this site, cause its trash right now, but soon it'll be good, I promise !!
-adrenalineangel xP